This Is The Day

I have probably only had dreams of Michael two or three times in the last 3 1/2 years.  But I’ve had dreams for the last two nights with him.  Monday night it was just me and him together.  Last night it was just his voice on the phone – like I was at the office and he was telling me where to find something for him.

Oh how I miss him. I am so lonely so much of the time.  I don’t want to be crying so much lately.

My God gives comfort to the sorrowful.  I want to look to Him and Him only for my comfort.  (Not food or laziness or relationships or shopping or money or tv.)

This is the day that the Lord has made.  I will rejoice and be glad in it.  Today is worth rejoicing simply because God has given me this day.  It is a gift from Him to me, so I will rejoice, be grateful and appreciative, and I will not let it be wasted in sorrow or tears or pity.

There will never be another February 28, 2018.  God, do not let me waste it or take it for granted.  Do not let me squander it by living in the past or worrying about the future.  Help me to learn to live in the present.  It is not something that I know naturally how to do.  But I know that You can show me how.  Guide me.  Help me to hear Your voice.  Strengthen me to follow Your prompting and to do Your will.  Give me the desire and the strength to put aside the things that are not Your plan for me, even though a part of me still wants to hang on to them.

Show me how to divide my day between quite times of reflection where I encounter You, and times of productive busy-ness that will keep me doing Your will and not allowing the devil to have any foothold or influence in my life.

I love You God.  And I submit my life and particularly this day to You, to have Your way.  While I still struggle with my own desires and silly daydreams, I know that You alone love me with a love that seeks the very best for me.  Thank you for loving me this way.  Help me to trust you more with each hour today.